1. If your ex become a millionaire and wanted you back, would you take them back?: No. He's gross. 2. Do you wear green on St. Patrick's day? Why or why not?: I don't really care 3. What was the first game console you owned? What was your first favorite video game on it?: It was a FamCom. I forgot the name of my fave video game on it. It involved spaceships, shooting at other things, and then more shooting. 4. Ever had frozen yogurt? If so, what's your favorite toppings and flavors?: I don't really put toppings on my froyo. I like cookies n creme, chocolate, pistachio, and strawberry shortcake 5. What color are your nails painted right now?: Neon orange. They "glow" under black light. Fun at raves. 6. Do you still own a lot of VHS tapes?: Yes...? I think we have the whole God Father series...and other movies. 7. Do you know anyone with naturally red hair? Who's the first person to come to mind?: I used to, in seventh grade. Her name is Tara. 8. Do you save all your loose change and cash it in later?: No. 9. Do you have a savings account? Anything in particular you're saving for?: I have a savings account but that shit is EMPTY. (so embarrassing) 10. How old are your siblings?: 32 and 28 11. If you could paint your room any color right now, what would it be?: Gold and red. Idk. or maybe turquoise. 12. Favorite fruit?: mango 13. Are you allergic to anything?: aspirin 14. If you have an iPod, what color is it?: i have a white and black one 15. How many pairs of high heels do you own?: idk...too many 16. Do you have Instagram? If so, do you do those monthly photo challenges?: No 17. Do you own a Northface? If so, what color?: No 18. Did you ever watch the Titanic movie in one sitting? Did you like it?: Yes. No. 19. What was the last rumor started about you?: I lost my virginity at a very young age and then went on a slut-fest. First part is true, second part isn't. 20. How old were you when 9/11 happened? Where were you?: I was 12. I was in a classroom and watched the 2nd plane crash into the building. 21. Do you like offensive jokes?: I know a few... 22. Last time you were on a plane? Where were you flying to?: I was probably flying back to california coming from las vegas. 23. Are you any good at math? What's the highest math class you've completed?: Yes. I hate it but I'm naturally good at it. Calculus/trigonometry...type shit. 24. Did you watch anime as a kid (or maybe even now)? What is/was your favorite one?: Yes and yes. I'm too embarrassed to tell you. Actually I'm watching this one anime called "Shiki". It's about vampires and shit. It was pretty good at first but then...the last few episodes are kind of shitty...but then I haven't really seen the last few episodes yet...but yeah I kind of lost interest. 25. Are there any television series you're obsessed with right now? What are they?: Ummm...nothing in particular. 26. How old were you when you got your first MySpace account? What about Facebook?: I had MySpace when I was a sophomore in high school, I think. I never really used it. I had facebook at the end of my senior year. I never really used that either. 27. Be honest, do you miss the MySpace days or do you like Facebook better?: I don't care for either. 28. What brand of eyeliner do you use?: Whatever. I don't know. 29. What is the scent of the last shampoo you used?: I don't know. I use Selsun Blue to get rid of my dandruff. 30. What was the last room of your house to be remodeled/painted/anything like that? My sister's room...I believe. 31. What internet browser do you use?: Chrome...? 32. Do you have auto correct enabled on your phone?: No 33. Can you speak any languages other than English? Which?: Yes. 34. If an anonymous donor gave you $1,000 tomorrow as a random act of kindness, what would you use it towards?: Pay some shit in my bank account. Take the rest with me on vacation. JK. I don't know what to do with the money. I'll just keep it stashed somewhere. 35. What's your favorite thing to get at Starbucks?: I don't really go there 36. What about Dunkin Donuts?: I don't go there either. 37. Do you own any tiaras?: I have a Nurse's hat. does that count. I also hate bitches who wear tiaras. 38. Did you do anything exciting for St. Patrick's day?: Got drunk. Ate. Watched a show with some friends. Farted a lot. 39. Do you reply to text messages when people say "yup", "k", "alright", "haha", "lol", etc.?: No 40. Last time you went to Hot Topic?: Several months ago? 41. Who is your favorite character from Star Wars?: Yoda would be a generic answer. or chewie or han solo or princess leia or luke or darth vader (anakin) or boba fett or any of the storm troopers or jar jar binks or c3po or other popular characters or padme or the list goes on 42. Last thing you bought from eBay?: I don't remember. Probably a t-shirt 43. Do you have an iPhone?: No 44. Do you prefer writing with pens or pencils?: Either 45. What does your favorite winter jacket look like?: Warm 46. Do you like bras with a lot of padding, a little, or none?: It depends on what i'm wearing. But then it doesn't really matter to me 47. Favorite perfume?: Some ralph lauren perfume 48. How many cars have you owned in your lifetime?: 1 49. What about cellphones?: Let's say...4 or 5 50. If you were a parent today, would you give your 9 year old kid an iPhone?: FUCK NO. My niece who's turning 9 on april want's an iPhone 5. I'm pretty fucking sure she's gonna get it. I wanna say something to my brother since that's his kid but I don't like telling other parents what to do with their children. [made @ xanga.com/surveys_for_nimrods]
I just wanted to say that I had a mild panic attack last Thursday.
I was just sitting there, watching TV to get my mind off of things, especially my upcoming Nursing Boards. *cue dramatic music* I had just finished eating. Anyway, I kind of just stared at the TV, not really paying attention, and this overwhelming feeling or emotion just came through me. My heart started to beat faster and faster, it's like, it was ready to come out of my chest. I started shaking and breathing deeply and rapidly. I then proceeded to cry because I was freaking out. I then calmed myself down after a minute of that happening. It was very brief. I then messaged a friend that I had a mild panic attack.
I'm really stressed out y'all. I'm kind of having a hard time coping with it. I'm also kind of fucking depressed. It takes a lot out of me to get up from my bed and start the day. Currently, I have a negative outlook on life, and i feel bad about it because I feel like I shouldn't. I've just been dwelling on the little negative shit, always looking on the negative side of things. I've been constantly thinking about committing suicide or just wanting to die, like someone were to fucking shoot me or just get into a really bad car wreck. I'm pretty fucked up in the head right now. I've also been thinking about going back to self-harming. But I haven't done anything yet. I don't want to seek professional help because I have a feeling this is just a phase that I'm going through. This happened to me before, a few years back. I'm going to wait it out. I know it'll get better as long as I write my thoughts down and have someone to talk to.
Would you like to have twins? No. Kids are too much to handle.
How does your hair look right now? It's up in a ponytail, but it's covered by my hood.
What color were the last shoes you wore? Black.
Are you currently listening to any music? Sublime "Pawn Shop"
Was your last kiss sober? Yes.
You're trapped in a room with your last ex for one day, what do you do? Sit there.
Who was the last person you got into an argument with? idk
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months? yeah
What are you listening to right now? The Black Keys "Psychotic Girl"
Are you expecting a child? I am not, but I long to start a family. I have baby fever and I am trying so hard to hide it from my friends, especially Zack. If I were more financially stable, I would definitely have a baby. If Zack was on board, which he's not. But still. Girls, you feel me, right!? I think most of us can be pretty maternal. <<< No. I don't feel this way at all. I want no children.
Are you waiting for anything in particular? I want his ass to come back to town already. I miss him.
Last person to really piss you off? A bunch of dumb fucks all around me.
What time did you go to sleep last night? I don't even know. Probably around 11pm.
Do you think you'll be a good mother/father? I don't like thinking about that stuff.
Marriage in your future? Stop!
If your best friend liked your last ex, what would you do? I'd be like, "Are you fucking dumb? Don't you hate him, too?"
Want to have kids before you're 30? No.
Have you kissed more than 10 people this year? No.
Do you like meeting new people? Yeah, sometimes.
What are you doing right now? Listening to music and texting this really annoying guy.
Have you ever seen the last person you texted naked? No. Thank goodness.
Last person to call you beautiful? Nobody.
How many piercings do you have? 2
Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it? I'm sure a lot of people do. My name is pretty common in books and such.
Would you go out with someone right now if they asked? I was asked actually yesterday. I said no.
Do you think somebody's in love with you? Yes.
Who do you spend the most time with? My bed. My computer. My niece.
Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot? umm 2 seconds ago
What are you doing later? Hopefully talking to the SO on the phone or text or something. I miss that fool.
Last person you rode in a car with? I don't remember. Oh, my niece. I drove.
Do you mind sleeping on the floor? No. I did it 2 weeks ago.
Do you enjoy summer? It's fun when you're in the water.
Can you imagine yourself getting married? ...
Do you have a phone? Yeah.
Do you have a reason to smile right now? Yeah. Plenty. I'm alive. I'm done with nursing school. I have chill friends.
Who was the last person that texted you? this dude who works at mcdonald's and i dont remember giving him my number.
Did you do something bad today? Eat chocolate.
Do you get stressed out easily? I sometimes do, yeah...when it's something that matters to me a lot.
Is there anything you wanted to do today that you didn't? Besides sex? no.
Do you always answer your phone? No
Is it hard leaving people behind? Kind of.
Will you kiss someone within the next week or two? Hopefully!
What kind of outfit are you wearing right now? sweats.
Where is the person you miss the most right now? In a train in San Jose.
In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a guy? Yes! FINALLY! I miss him so much.
Missing anybody? yes.
Would you rather go back a week or forward? a week.
Did you do something mean to someone today? No.
How long can you go without eating? A day.
What is your favorite night to go out? friday night. there's always something to do Friday night: parties, kick backs, barhopping, whatever.
Who did you hug last? My niece.
Has someone ever made a promise to you and broke it? I'm pretty sure someone has plenty of times.
Have you ever tripped over something in public? Yeah. Also, I slipped on a banana peel. You can actually slip stepping on those things. I thought it was just in cartoons. lol
Describe how you feel right now in one word? Pissed off and excited at the same time.
Is there anyone who doesn't like you? Plenty.
Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in ten years? I don't know.
Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now? fuck yeah.
Are you addicted to cigarettes? No.
Is any part of you happy at all? Yeah
How was your day today? It was just...ugh.
Have you ever burned yourself? Yeah. It was a 2nd degree burn...and it was for a dumbass reason. I am not gonna talk about it cuz it's so fucking stupid.
Do you have something to say to anyone? Plenty. "Bitch, I told you that in confidence. Stop running your stupid fucking mouth. You fucking crazy-ass two-faced bitch. Go get fucked by your stupid fucking dog."
Will tomorrow be better than today? I hope so! I get to see him. But not till later on at night.
Do you like to sleep? Yes.
What are you going to do next? Shit.
Are you wearing jeans right now? No.
Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery? Yeah I have but I won't.
Do you have more friends that are girls or boys? both
Your ex is walking next to you, with their new partner, what do you do? Whoa! You look related! Seriously, look at this:
Am I right or am I right? I told you. (I apologize for putting ugly on your screen.)
Are there things in your life that you'll never be able to get over? Uhhh I'm aight, actually.
Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over? I did before, but since I changed as a person, I dating someone totally different than someone I'd *usually* go for.
It's 2 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it most likely? A friend who wants to get super smashed.
Are you good at giving directions? No? I'm not very good at taking them either. lol
Have you ever been called heartless? Yes, yes, yes. I was just speaking the truth about something. *shrugs shoulders*
Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone? Yeah.
Did you cry from a text last night? No...?
Were you intoxicated the last time you threw up? Most likely.
Do you have a reason to smile right now? Yeah. I have plenty. My last day of school is in 13 days. I'm in a great relationship with someone, and I never thought it could ever get this good. It just makes me realize the kind of shitty relationships I've been in.
Do you think the last person you texted cares about you? I would hope so. She's awesome. I care about her, too.
If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? DENY DENY DENY. "His dick accidentally slipped in my pussy!" jk Well, I think it'd be obvious, no?
Does anyone completely understand you? Not completely but they understand a lot about me.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Yes!
Would you kiss the last person you texted? That'd be awkward. She and I don't even hug cuz it's awkward, unless we're drunk. We just don't give a fuck.
Do you honestly have any regrets? No. I don't have any regrets. I'm glad I am whoI am right now.
Can you count your serious relationships on one hand? 6..ok I lie. I've been in 6 relationships but the most serious ones...I'd have to say...3.
Name something great that happened today. I did cardio for an hour straight and I didn't die. My legs wanted to give out though; all wobbly and shit.
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing right now? I'm wearing a dress, and I bought it online. (ebay)
What was the last song you listened to? "Lonely Boy" The Black Keys (I'd DIE if I ever saw them live.)
Who is someone you'll always hate? My school's Director of Nursing and DSD. those people can just...fuck each other.
Do you know anyone with the same name as you? No.
Do any of your friends dislike each other? No. and if they do, I tend to stay out of it.
What are you doing right now? I should be writing a journal, but I'm texting one of my friends, and listening to music.
What's the first thing you did when you woke up this morning? whine.
Do you care if people hate you for no reason? No. They don't matter to me, especially their opinions/assumptions.
Are you in a good mood? I'm ok. I'm super hungry though.
Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend? Yes.
How many piercings do you have? 2. Nipples.
Is there someone that you want to see? Of course.
You can get a puppy or a new car. Which do you choose? A new car. I have too many dogs. Although, whenever I see a cute puppy, I always wanna take it home with me.
Do you wear a belt with every pair of jeans? I think so.
Everyone has that one relationship they would do over & change something right? Nope.
What was your first thought when you woke up today? Ughhh I have to exerciiiiise. I go poop first.
Did you have a good weekend? Yes. It was memorable.
Are you close with anyone you never expected to be close with? Heck yes.
Do you have a hard time letting go? when I've had that certain thing for a long time, then I think I do.
My significant other is moving 2.5 hours away for work. I am genuinely happy and proud of him though. I hope he moves up in the company and finally does something he really loves doing. I'm just glad that he's excited to leave this piece of shit town.
Last night, we were telling each other how much we'll miss each other, and I told him that I'll miss him especially because next Friday would be a year since we've met each other in person. We were hugging each other and giving each other kisses, and then Pandora decided to play "I Miss You" by Incubus. He started crying. :( It was actually kinda cute.
We then got crossfaded, had sex, and fell asleep. We woke up and then had morning sex and went out for breakfast.
I really love him, you guys. I wasn't sure at first but now I'm sure. LIKE, I'M FOR SEREALS!!! I have not felt this way in such a long time. I never thought that I could be this happy in a relationship again. Come to think of it, I don't think I've ever been this happy in a relationship, ever.
I thought that my relationship with my ex was as good as it got. And let me tell you, it wasn't that great. I was this dumb, naive girl who let herself get cheated on over and over again. I took him back each time. We would argue over and over again about the same shit because it never got resolved in the first place. I always brought it up in our next argument. It was such a stressful "relationshit".
I always thought relationships were gonna be stressful and it was up to me if I was gonna be able to handle it. I just realized now that relationships don't have to be stressful all the time as long as the communication is there.
I don't know. I'm just really happy. Maybe I've changed as a person. I don't let the little things bother me, like I used to. Also, I think it's because I trust him fully. I don't snoop either! I'm not paranoid like I used to be. Back then, whenever my ex went out with friends or went to a party, I always felt like he was going to cheat on me or do something that would piss me off, so I always checked up on him or asked him questions. I was kinda right, actually. He'd ask for a girl's number and then he'd add her on facebook or vice versa, and then they would go on a date/s. Whatever. Also, I don't ask questions that I know the answer would get me upset. Anyway, whenever my current SO would have a guys' night out, I don't check up on him, or ask any questions. I just let him be. He's usually the one who texts me when he's out. And he's the one to tell me what he did with his friends, and I didn't even ask (because I'm not really interested).
Anywhoooooooo, sometimes I still think that this is too good to be true. I'm just happy I met him. I'm genuinely happy for him that he's moving out of this town. Hopefully, I can move out, too. I wish my parents didn't have to guilt me each time I talked to them about moving out. -_-
I made this post longer than intended. But yeah, I love this guy: